I am 22 years old with a lot of health problems. For so long I felt like it wasn’t okay to not be okay, part of me will probably still think like that forever. I’ve had fibromyalgia for a few years now and recently it’s got quite bad. So, I’m now facing up to the reality of what my life is with chronic illnesses. To tell the truth, I’m terrified of my own future, that’s probably why I’ve never thought of it before.
I’m quite a proud person and I hate admitting how ill I have really become. So many people go on about not letting things define you, but I really think that sometimes, you can’t help but let something define you when it takes over every aspect of your life.
Some days I feel like I’m going to crumble and disappear, I probably hope that I’ll disappear, but some days I feel like a fighter who isn’t going to let it get me down. There are days inbetween and days I fear will never end. Hopefully, one day I’ll come out the other side of all of this, that’s the only thought that keeps me going on the bad days.